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Happy birthday Hajidah (=

2010-09-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my dearest cousin Hajidah (: She's my amit's daughter. The father is gonna throw a surprise for her soon! Wheeeee :D Can't wait! I am sure it'll be super awesome since all of the cousins will be there :D

I'm not in a good mood today actually. Something came up. So yeah :| I so don't wanna talk about. I'll be having my class in this afternoon at 2-5PM. Alhamdulillah being in Laksamana College is great. Tutors are helpful and my classmates are good people.

I'll blog about something else soon (:

You tore me apart ='| ♥

Updated!

2010-09-27T15:33:00.003+08:00

I just woke up from my nap. I need the time to rest since I'm having my night-and-going-to-be-afternoon class at Laksamana College. Oh yes, I have enrolled at Laksamana this year for HND in Computing (General). Alhamdulillah my classmates and tutors are all nice and helpful.

Not much to update. I'll be blogging what so ever things I could think of at the moment. Haha :D Oh, I found out that whenever me or my cousins asked "what's your name?" to him then he'll reply "Kathim" HAHAHAHA! That is really funny. An almost 2 year old baby boy has a DNA which resembles to someone far more older than him :P

Both of my brothers are getting married insyallah next year! Wheeeee! I am so happy for them because I'll have a anak buah soon. Now I'm watching "cars" at the Disney Channel. My parents found out of my relationship with my baby boy, Mohammad Haszif. Alhamdulillah they are not mad at me :| Dad asked to take things easy and don't put too much commitment in my relationship as he wants me to succeed and excel my education. I respect that as long as my relationship is kinda cool with him.

So far my relationship with the boyfriend is going on good. Alhamdulillah (: It's been 27 months since I have fallen in love and being wrapped around his arms. I miss him a lot. I said that because having my parents known my relationship doesn't give it much easier for me to be with him. My parents doesn't want him to come by my place at the moment because they don't want the neighbors to think my parents as bad parents. I don't need to explain much. So yeah.

I'll blog and update more soon if I have anything to tell (:

I love you Jeff, mwaa

Japan or Korea? =O

2010-06-03T15:34:00.002+08:00

Hello. I'm currently revising at the moment for my last paper tomorrow. Well, I'm kinda blogging at the moment tho -.-" I'm in a middle of my revision ... ah, that's right (:

I was chatting with my boyfriend through the Facebook message box ((: I kinda miss him )': it's been awhile since I last spent time with him *sigh* Tomorrow is my last paper. WOO-HOO!!! :D

Latest update of my life is that my parents are planning to send me either to Korea or Japan for a scholarship :O That was totally unexpected. We discussed about it over dinner. In Japan it's Business Administration and Korea it's Social Science. Thinking of doing it to make my parents proud, but I'm just not ready to be overseas and away from my love ones )):

My last paper for tomorrow is Biology paper 5. Hope that I'll do way much better than before, insyallah, amin. Currently I'm waiting for a Davidoff Cool Water perfume for my boyfriend. I bought it through online shopping :D Hope that it'll arrive Brunei soon (: Also I'm kinda thinking of buying him a paul smith shoes, there's the $130, and the other is $85. Hmm, still thinking tho' I'm trying to buy him something that he loves cause he bought me so many things already. I just wanna return the favor.

I'm kinda annoyed with the Disney Channel now cause they keep on playing the " Kick Buttowski " show like 4-5 times in a day :O I got nothing else to watch. Pfft. But at the same time I kinda like watching it cause the character has a round belly and an ass like a duck hahahahaha! :D Okay, I need to continue my revision now. Oh my gosh! I'm hungry -.-"

That's all the update for now ((:

I love you Jeff, mwaa

It's been more than a month -.-"

2010-05-25T10:29:00.002+08:00

My latest update before this was on April 6th. Oh my -.-" Today is May 25th. It's been so long. I just don't have the mood to blog before. So yeah (: Good news is that on May 17th, it was my 23rd month being together with my one and only handsome boyfriend, Mohammad Haszif Mat Daud. Can't wait for June 17th (: He's my world, my everything. He's my true love. I could never imagine how my life would be if there is no you in my life love )': kiana and danish (':

Lately, I've been baby sitting my nephew, Mohammad Raiyan Zharfan :D He's fun to be with. Having to take care of him makes me want to have my own baby. lol :D

Tomorrow I'll be having my Biology exam Paper 1. Yes, I'm retaking my June cause I got an E -.-" There are no new photos at the moment, but insyallah I'll upload some when my cousin, kaka farah comes back home from UK. Wheeeeeeeeee :D Hope that she'll have a safe flight and no delays. amin amin amin. It's kinda creepy tho' to travel via plane lately cause of the volcanic ash :S Hope that the volcano will calm down soon (:

I guess that's all to talk about at the moment. Just wanna update my blog cause there's a lot of spider cobs *literally* HAHA!

Byeeeeee for now :DDDD

I love you Jeff, mwaa

It's been a while =O

2010-04-06T13:20:00.002+08:00

Hello there =D It's been so a while since I last updated this blog. Well actually, more than a month -.-" *blowing off the spider webs* HAHA. I didn't have the mood to blog before, even on my birthday and on my 21st month-sarry I didn't blog about it =S

To start off, my birthday was awesome =D Cause it was just me, the family and cousins. Wish my boyfriend was there. He was terribly ill that day )'= No worries sayang, I'll be there for your birthday, okay?

Hmm ... what else? Oh yes, this morning, I was awaken by the boyfriend =DD Then we had breakfast together (Y) Makan mee goreng sama telur saja. Heehee =p But it was a great morning (=

Oh oh, I'm gonna go through an interview for ITB tomorrow around 2:30 =O I am so nervous. Interviews are my worst fears )'= Oh my. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah bagi ku. Semoga semuanya berjalan dengan lancar dan mudah-mudahan aku dapat masuk ITB untuk tahun ini. Amin amin amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. I'm trying my best to shift my interest towards business (management) and I'm willing to give 100% commitment to this course.

My parents would love to see me succeed. Insyallah, amin (=

My boyfriend now kerja as a supervisors for those yang attachment arah RBA. For PLM students. I miss him ))'= so much. I'm watching Spongebob Squarepants now (= and I'm still hungry =S I guess I am done blogging for today =D Will blog again soon (=

I love you Jeff, mwaa

Come back from hiatus (:

2010-03-02T10:10:00.003+08:00

I am back from being HIATUS (: My HECAS application is done. I am retaking my biology exam again this June. Pray for me, yeah? (: It's been a while since I've talked with any of the abyadhians (': It's kinda sad cause like every one of them have a story to tell. Have a story to share. I am just so lost (':

Honestly, I miss being around them. It's just sad when we have to grow apart nowadays. Then I notice like if they went out then they usually go out with them whom they are closer to (': It's okay. I understand. The LOOVA's are own their own. It's just sad cause like jarang sudah jalan apa with them.

Jeff one's told me that if they are really my friends they always wish to be there for one another. It's just that they are busy nowadays. So yeah (: I hope that they still remember our reunion date on January 6th 2010. Do they miss me? I surely do miss them a lot cause they had helped me a lot when I was with them. I wasn't the smart one (: So I needed a lot of help from them.

Things changed even tho' we wish it NOT to happen (: We have new friends, new life, new scenery and tend to see the new are better. But new never always means better cause our old friends are the one who have known us more than the new ones (': It's just sad cause I have nothing to say to my girls other than " Hey sis, I miss you ): " It's kinda sad cause I can't keep up the conversation that long. But the abyadhian girls will always be my girls for life :D <3.>

I wished to go overseas for my HNDs to make my parents' dream come true (: It's also my dream to have to go overseas to further my studies. It's kinda hard for me to achieve it cause I'm the only girl in my family so you would have to expect how my mom's reaction on letting me go overseas -.-" It's kinda sad too if I tend to go overseas cause Jeff will be in Brunei )': and it's gonna be a long-distance dating )': OMG. I am crying now.

On 17th February was my 20th month-sarry with Jeff (: It was the best cause having him around for a monthsarry is already special (Y) love you much much sayang! :D

It's funny how my story shifted from my girls to my lovely boyfriend <3.>

I've talked too much -.-" hahahahaha :D I'll blog about something else soon ;D

I love you Jeff, mwaa

On hiatus! (:

2010-01-23T09:47:00.002+08:00

I will be on hiatus. I'll be busy with my UCAS and HECAS applications and I'll be working maybe in February. Pray for me, okay? I hope that I'll go overseas for Degree or HND and hope that I'll get a good temporary job with a good salary (: Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. I'll be updating if there's anything interesting to post about :D

Oh oh, on the 17th Jan, it was my 19th monthsarry with Mohammad Haszif bin Mat Daud. I love you so much sayang <3<3<3.

I love you Jeff, mwaa

A late update on welcoming 2010! (:

2010-01-05T10:07:00.004+08:00

I was suppose to update this blog on the 1st of January 2010 but then I got busy entertaining my Jeff (: hahahahahaha *lame excuse* Anyway, I have reconstructed my blog. Gheee ;D I got tired seeing my old blog then I started to use the new type of HTML. Come to think of it, it is much more easier than the older version since it's easier to arrange gadget an stuffs (:

I am going to post all the pictures *only 23 of them* of the New Year Celebration which was held in my house :D It's not much because I got busy baking Oreo Truffles, webcam-ing with the cousins in Singapore, having fun with the nephews and nieces ^^,

I don't know what's my resolution for this year =.='' But all I wanted is to not do the same mistakes, keep moving forward, be a good daughter, sister, friend and especially a good girlfriend to Jeff (':

And oh, my tagboard is at the bottom of this page. If you can't see it then check your eye sight, okay? Cause it's super wide! HAHAHAHA. Just like what my Jeff said "ambil unique" ;DD Jeff, me love you <3.

Hmmm. Apparently I cannot upload the pictures right now. Pfffft =.='' After kan upload then "bad request" tia! Oh well, I'll try to post the pictures tonight (:

Now I am packing because I'm leaving Brunei for 4 days and 3 night to Hong Kong and China. I'll be missing my Jeff so badly. Sayang, you be good when I am not around, okay? (':

I love you Jeff, mwaa

Bored )=

2009-12-23T20:25:00.003+08:00

I am now watching "Are you smarter than a 5th grader" on Star World with my little brother (: I got nothing much to do tho' cause my Jeff is out with his father and Moon's father for fishing. So yeah ...

Last night I went out with my Jeff to watch the movie Avatar. The movie was awesome! :D It was almost a 3-hour show but it's worth it! (Y) We watched it at Mall with my little brother, my second brother and his girlfriend. It was a good thing that I booked an earlier show because it was almost 3 hours O_o Then I stopped by "Pasar Malam" because Jeff was hungry :pp Heehee ;D

I met Jeff this morning and evening (Y) I had a really great time with him (; He bought Pizza for us *yum* and played PS2 with my little brother. I am so bored now ... hmmm ): I miss my Jeff already and is loving him so much (':

I love you Jeff, mwaa

Happy yet sad.

2009-12-22T13:47:00.005+08:00

I am happy today because I am now braces free (Y) :DD Even though that I still need to use the retainer *bummer* =.=" but at least you still can see my straight teeth! woo-hoo :DD My brother belum kana buka braces nya because the doctor say that he didn't used the rubber band *a braces thing* in the correct way. So he's kinda upset because he didn't get to remove his braces this year. The bottom line is that I am free from it. Hahahahahahahah :DD

I am not actually wanting for the clock strikes 2+ because I need to wake up my older brother because he's gonna take me to the dentist again ): this is when the dentist will put the retainer to my teeth =.=" But the doctor also mentioned that it will be only for FEW MONTHS. I hope so (: I've been using braces for 3 years already =.=" so having it removed is a relief. Although, I still feel as if the braces is still attached =.="

Happy 20th birthday to Siti Nabilah Haji Ahmad. Miss you a lot Nab ): Take care and be safe dsana. Have a blast and enjoy your day (:

I didn't get enough sleep last night because I cried all night long. It's about Jeff. I won't tell what happened here because the story is kinda private. It's just between me and him. I feel so sad because I wasn't there to protect him. I keep reminding my self how I hated myself so much. I prayed to Allah so that his wounds will heal quickly. He and I undergo the same thing. I know sayang what does it feels like ): *hugs you tight sayang* I just wished that I could replace you that time. That message of yours is still playing inside my head ... like a replay )':

Ya Allah, lindungilah dia (Mohammad Haszif Bin Mat Daud) dari segala kejahatan dan kesulitan. Sembuhkanlah dia Ya Allah. Aku terlalu mencintainya )': Mudahan dia tidak akan dibuat begitu lagi Ya Allah ... Aku memohon kepadaMu Ya Allah )':

I love you Jeff, mwaa

18 monthsarry with Jeff ♥

2009-12-17T13:01:00.005+08:00

I usually update my blog when it's my monthsarry with Jeff (: Heehee ;pp So you readers don't have to guess what am I gonna talk about! ;D Today is my 18 monthsarry with Mohammad Haszif (Y) I am so so happy (: 18 months since we were together. Thanks for always being there for me Jeff. Thanks for always being beside me in any condition (': I love you so much sayang badau handsome! ;DD

Now I am bored =.=" I was on facebook replying comments with Raihan's girlfriend, Saffura (; Then I played Cafe World in facebook. An addictive game for sure! =.=" But I don't mind playing it all day long since I don't have anything else to do. My Jeff is at work now. I miss him so much )): I want to spent more time with him. But I don't mind that since he's busy with work (; I also watching cartoon with my little brother at the moment. Heehee ;pp

Oh, I have started to do my first draft on my personal statement, and it was WEAK! =.=" It's okay, I don't mind actually because I didn't expect it was gonna be that good for my first attempt (: Now I am going to do my second draft. I hope that it could be better than the first one (Y) That's all I guess.

Also, Happy 20th Birthday to my beloved sister, Wani (: I love you sis ;DD Thanks for always calling me Mrs Haszif (Y) I like it so much ;DD

I will update more and try to upload pictures soon, okay? Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;DD

I love you Jeff, mwaa

Happy 21st birthday boyfriend.

2009-12-07T20:00:00.004+08:00

5th December 2009.

On that day, my boyfriend, Mohammad Haszif Bin MatDaud turned 21 (: We celebrated it at Hafiz's house because at Jeff's house there was no adults to be in charge of the house because his parents went to a family function (: I was LATE! like VERY LATE! due to my SECOND BROTHER! I was so kusut that I cried!! Because I've planned to be with him around 6+ on the evening and I came there at 8+ ): I was so upset with my brother! Pffft. My eldest brother wanted to send me but he had work to do ): Anyway ... I bought him a white FLESH IMP T-shirt and also bought him a chocolate filling cake (: He saved me some BBQ chicken and cake because I didn't get to eat it. Malas ku kan berceritanya panjang2! Only him and I knows the full story (: Apaan!

Besuk I need to bangun early because ada Adventure Club Orientation. I am off now. Mau tidur. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I love you Jeff, mwaa

Bored ...

2009-11-29T16:32:00.002+08:00

Hello. Now I am bored. I'm waiting for my sayang Jeff to sampai home from rumah Jeerah because Jeerah pindah kerumah baru (:

I have mixed emotions right now )): I wish to go out with my friends. The abyadhians. Going to school not having to see them everyday is really boring. I meet Amal everyday but when payah kan jumpa her then it's so boring ):

Sometimes I feel bad for myself. Even though I haven't lost contact with the girls but I feel like I'm moving further from them )': I don't blame them. Maybe it's because I seldom text them or so. I wanted to but I just don't know how to start. I don't know what's happening in their lives which I always know when I was with them for 7 years )':

It gets me crying because I sometimes couldn't be there for them. I'm just upset for myself. I wanna be close with them just like before. I'm just so disappointed that I don't know what's the latest news in their lives. I know it's private but it's okay lah. I'm happy that they are texting with each other. I'm just upset because if I text with them then the conversation ends.

Maybe I'm not good in talking to people )): I don't blame them. I blame myself. I hope that when I get to meet them then I can get closer back to them just like before and get track on what's the latest news happening to them (': I just miss them so much ))':

My sayang Jeff belum balik! )))): awwwwww. I'm hungry now =.=" I want to spent time sama iaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Sayang plese come home ))': I need you so much! I miss you so badly! I love you!! Esuk help me out d Berakas Forest Reserve, okay? Jgntah ingau. Durang tau sudah tu :D heehee :pp I can't wait to spent time sama you besuk! We main air apa! AMAGAD!!! Ke pantai tu love! Main air, main pasir. Awwwwwwwwwwwww (': I so can't wait *hugs you tight* Me kan makan mee goreng now sayang. heehee :pp

That's all for today. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I love you Jeff, mwaa

Anniversary (:

2009-11-22T10:30:00.003+08:00

It's been sooooooooooooooo long since I've updated this blog. Been busy with exams lately =.=" Alhamdulillah my A level exams are done on the 17th Nov (: Guess what???? 17th Nov was my 17th monthsarry with Jeff (': I am so happy!! So so happy!! Alhamdullilah Allah have blessed my relationship with Jeff. There's always those ups and downs between us but it's okay, at the end of the day, we managed to overcome it (:

Jeff's birthday is coming up. It's on the 5th of Dec. I am still looking for a good place to have dinner with him. Any opinions? heehee :pp I miss spending time with Jeff. I just feel so safe around him (': How I wish I can see him every single day. Wouldn't that be great?? heehee :pp Now I started to play Talisman Online! Jeff and my siblings helped me a lot on this game because I was just so bengang O_o hahahahahaha. I used Fairy as my char and now is at level 22 (: Jeff is at level 34 =.=" buyuk! hahahaha, nada deh. I love you sayang *hugs you tight*

Next I would like to tell you about the day I spend time with Jeff and my beloved cousins on the 18th Nov. We went to Mall and watched Phobia 2. Mcm setaie wah aku ani, sekali teriak2, tutup muka apa arah badan si Jeff. Heehee :pp Iatah jeff ketawakan :pp But I had a great time with him ((: We seat arah couple seat!! Hahahaha (Y) It was totally an awesome day. We played at UNI, the arcade place (: I was with jeff, Khalish, Iffat, Nabilah, Kris, Hajidah, Aqilah, Meey and Bashirah. It was fun cousins. Let's do it someday, okay? (:

I guess that's all that is need to be told (: Byeeeeee :D

I love you Jeff, mwaa

16 monthsarry (L)

2009-10-17T21:41:00.005+08:00

Hello there. It's nearly a month since I last updated this blog. I didn't even upload raya picture -_-" I'm just too lazy because there's a lot of them. Heehee (:

Well, basically the purpose of me blogging now during A level exam fever is because today is my 16 MONTHSARRY with love, Jeff <3. Not much to say actually. I am just glad that we managed to go through the ups and downs together. All of those tough times and all... yea love, we have conquered it all (': I'm happy that you were always there beside me in my time of needs (L) We don't need to fight for small matters because we know that at the end of the day, all we have is each other (': I love you Mohammad Haszif Bin Mat Daud. I do. I do! With all my heart I do love you and will always love you. I'm gonna try my hardest to give you happiness. I'm gonna try my best to shower your life with laughter. I'm gonna try my best to see that smile of yours (': You know what love? I'm listening to the song Kerna Ku Sayang Kamu - Dygta. This song makes me cry love because everytime I listen to this song I always tend to bring back those good memories of ours <3.

Now love, I'm currently listening to the song by Eyes Set To Kill - Beauty Through Broken Glass. Thanks for giving me this song love. I'll treasure it forever with all the other stuffs that you send to me (':

Only Allah can separate us (':

I love you Jeff... mwaa

Happy 11th Birthday lil bro ; Abdul Raziq Azim 20.09.2009

2009-09-20T22:17:00.013+08:00

Hello there readers. Raya is coming (: Well, it's tomorrow actually. Hahaha :DD But sadly, Ramadhan is leaving us )': I made oreo truffles this year and mom made her acar daging *drools* heehee.

Today's date is so awesome, it's 20.09.2009 and is considered as the 1 st of Syawal (: The best thing about today is that it's my little brother's birthday. His turning 11 (: Manisssssssssssssss (Y) hahaha :DD Here are pictures taken tadi lapas we sungkai.

Venue: My home (:
Time: After sungkai.
Ocassion: Little brother turning 11

His cakes *drools* Chocolate ice cream cake (:

My siblings. From left, abg boy, me, bday boy (raziq) and Ljay ((:

The boys ((: Manisssssss.

Lusuh usul ku. Biar tia :pp belum mandi baa (Y) hahaha :D and kami sedang menyanyikan ia lagu happy birthday ((:

I like this picta BRABISSSSSSSSSSSSS. Pasal we were all in a spontaneous pose and ... lawa lah yg pentingnya (Y) :DD

The women in the brown baju tidur :pp is my mommy :DD

Happy times (': It's good to see us together like this ((':

This is my family (Y) Love them brabissssss <3<3<3>

Birthday boy ; raziq. Also known as "Rasus" in Talisman Online *exposure much?* lol :DD

Yg the last 8 pictures ani is when my brother trying to play with the camera. Ia kan mau cuba if it is possible to use macro arah digi cam.. and it worked!! (Y) So ia sakai sikit :pp lol :DD and saya jadi model yg kena blurred kan -_______________-" sungguh tidak adil!!! hahah.

That is pretty much what happened today. The usuals is that me go online with my sayang badau Jeff ((: heehee. Now I wanna go to sleep after doing this. Ia now bersihkan longkang blakang rumahnya. Pasal esuk kan raya, so rumah mesti bersih, right badau? (Y) heehee. YOU MUST KNOW THIS.. I love you Jeff ((: I'm off to bed now. Btw, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin to Jeff, family and friends. Forgive me for my wrong doings (': May you all will be blessed by Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin...

I love you Jeff.. mwahh

15 monthsarry <3

2009-09-17T13:39:00.002+08:00

Hello readers ((: Today is a special day for me an Jeff. It's our 15 MONTHSARRY together... Woo-hoo :DD A year and three months sudah (': I am so happy with him. I could never ask for more. I love you sayang *cubit jubur you* hahahahaha :pp Beli kasut bisai2 wa sayangg. Ani kan membali selipar jepun yg lapik2 tah pulang )): Menyamal me )))':

I love you with all my heart sayang. Sayang you brabissssssssssss. Thanks for always been there for me sayang. The ups and downs, we have conquered it (Y) Me miss you brabisssssssssssss. I'll save you ACAR DAGING, okay? ((: heehee.

I love you so much Jeff. Brabisssssssssssssssssssssssss <3

I love you Jeff.. mwahh

2009-09-16T00:54:00.003+08:00

Heeee~ Hyee :D Aku jobless now. Tengah tunggu my Jeff ((: heehee. Not much to say. I bought a new pair of shoes tadi (: I love it. It doesn't have to be expensive to make me look hot, yes? (Y) It's silver, or grey.. sorry, I'm not good in differentiating colours -_-" don't laugh :pp

Anyway, since the clock stroke 12 already, means to say that the date is already tomorrow's date, meaning it's 16th sudah :DD Hahah. I'm happy because on the 17th, my relationship with Jeff is growing stronger and happier. 15 months in one more day sayang (': I love you.

That's all for now. Now I'm waiting for Jeff (:

I love you Jeff.. mwahhh <3

2009-09-07T20:33:00.003+08:00

Hello there (: It's been awile since I last updated this blog. Not much to talk about really (: Si zana wa ani. Ia buat arah my chat box and suruh update pasal ia cakap berhabuk sudah. Hina rasa ku (': hahahahaha :DD Nada deh :p I kinda miss zana (: and pie and muizzah.They are my close buddies in physics class. I miss them because last Saturday I didn't go to school. I need a day away from school and have an intense revision on my own (: On 1st September I went out with my Jeff <3 heehee. We sungkai @ his favourite place, IDEAL!! I was happy because I get to meet him. Ia rasa happy jua pasal ia dapat jumpa aku and makan cheese balls, cheese fries, belgium waffle kah tu namanyaa.. haha.. and and spaghetti (: Yg calinya, ia firstly order semua makananya then only my food =.=" hahahaha. It showed how iski he was (Y) but I don't mind, asal ia happy then that makes me happy as well. After we makan, we head to the Cineman, we watched ORPHAN. Ngok wa ceritanyaa -_-" Mcm most of the time I was hiding my jacket!! lol :DD what?? Aku andang penakut!! hahahaha. Jeff was okay2 saja, yg best nya we duduk arah couple seat!! A3 and A4 (: Then lapas we tengok wayang we go KLCC. Nda tau dmana? ahh jgntah tau :pp hahahaha (Y) Kami dua saja tau heehee (: After that we went back tempat my brother parked our car. Jeff dangan jalan balik~~ he is so manithhhh <3 (Y). Then then then we lepak arah parking atu then as my brother datang then Jeff balik ke Mall and tunggu kawannya to hantar ia balik. Hmmmm I miss him a lot eee )': Writing this makes me feel to miss him even more. Awww~ such a wonderful memory~~~ Sayang, nanti jalan lagi, okay? I love you Jeff!!!

Yana and Nab left Brunei already ): Sorry girl because nda dapat hantar you both ): My cousin flew to UK to, she went to Liverpool to further her studies on HND then Degree (: Siuk eh mendangar org belayar ahh ): Insyallah I'll do my best for my A's and will insyallah (amin) go abroad to continue my studies.

Yana asked me how was exam? I already told her pulang ;p heehee. So today is still fasting. I guess it has been 2 weeks since Ramadhan started. Alhamdulillah I am still fasting. I mean, I still can fast. Belum my period baa =.=" Now my bf main futsal and I finished revising my psychology and printing my papers already. Now aku bored saja. Waiting for Jeff pasal ia mau berkomunikasi with me. Heehee you kambang sayang (:

For my A's I'm gonna give everything that I got and everything what I have been told. I don't want to let my parents down. They had pay so much attention towards me. They send me tuition, they pay my tuition fees. They send me for extra classes. Ya Allah, semoga segala persiapkan ku untuk perperiksaan nanti tidak sia-sia dan mudah2an aku dapat membuat ibu-bapa ku bangga seperti dulu. Amin.

I guess atu saja yg kan d cakap kan. Not much actually (: So I'm off to continue revising my school work. Take care people. Aku sayang si Jeff. Jeff saja!!! heehee random. Sayang baby love you <3

I love you Jeff.. mwahhh <3

14 monthsarry <3

2009-08-17T17:06:00.005+08:00

I am happy!! Yes I am. Happy as .... erm ... eh eh happy as apakan selalunya? =.=" Ahh nevermind~ Yg penting I am drop dead happy today. Pasal apa? Pasal today is my 14 MONTHSARRY WITH JEFF. I am so happy because I spent 14 months with the one I love and with the one who love me most and had love me for who I am (': Tq sayang. I am loving you so much and so strong everyday (:

But but kesian my sayang. He demam )': So now he otw ke clinic sama mmy nya )': Ya Allah, lindungilah mereka dan sembuhkanlah sayang ku Ya Tuhan. Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. Like seriously, kesian brabis ku tadi liat ia tersiruk2 ah )': Anyway, tadi masa he met me, he makan mee goreng, nasi + ayam goreng + acar daging (: Acar daging atu my mmy cooked it tadi and he kennyamanan :DD Addicted lagi ia tarus tu eh =.=" hahahahaha :D

To Liyana : Sweetcorn panya namanya :p nda ku ingat wa sis :p heheheh.

Not much to say, esuk my last paper for my exam! woo-hoo :D But then two papers at continuous time intervals =.=" pffffft. Neverminf that, janji habis and terjawap dengan baik. Ya Allah, mudahan jua aku dapat jawap dengan baik. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin (': I heard that results are coming ): maybe on the 20th. Takut ku eh ): Dearest results, please be good. I love you if you are good, okay? and don't be naughty results, okay? (: hehehehe.

So far that's the latest update of my life (: I'll update more soon :DD

I love you Jeff... mwaa

Jobless =/

2009-08-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

Hello there (: Aku now actually baru lapas dari balik tuition bio. Then singgah makan malam dluar with family @ Escapade yg @ Qlap. Now I am waiting for my dearest Jeff to text me back because I think he tertidur due to waiting for me )': I don't blame him. It was my fault. I didn't message him to tell that I will be running late to get back home.

Anyway, I had my physics mock exam this morning. The paper was .... =.=" OMG! No comment (: At least I have tried my best to study hard and revise all the topics. Now I know that last minute study is never good. HAHAHAHA. It took me awhile there to notice that last minute study is not the best policy (: Sure, I tend to remember things on my last minute revision ... but ... I tend to forgot things easily too =.=" Mcm, sia2 much! My next paper will be on the 18th, which will be my last paper and will be the worst day of that week because my biology paper is together with my physics paper! ugh!!! =.=" This is certainly not my month.

But hey! I am happy because I got into my PMS mode already! LOL :DD I am happy because that Insyallah I won't miss fasting on the first day. Rugi wa if nda puasa on the first day, agree? Now, it's 11:10 PM and si sayang masih jua balum reply my text *sigh*. The good thing about today is that I met him tadi!!! I miss you already Jeff )': Nanti we jumpa lagi, yes? <3

Aku random ni ... aku suddenly taisliur jagung dalam cawan =.=" yg bercampur sama butter ahh ... yg harganya $1+ ahh (kedapatan tia yg diri ani malar membali~) hahaha :DD So ... basically, not much to say~ Just random stuffs here and there ... Well, that is all.

I love you Jeff... mwaa

Aku bored.

2009-07-20T16:59:00.006+08:00

Hye (: Aku jobless now -___-" I just finished revising my psychology. Baru satu subject sudah tia paning ): Anyway, I wanna watch the crow 2 sama Jeff pasal ia belum liat jua. Heeee~ I watched the previous one but it was a long time ago. I wanna have a movie marathon ... and yes, I have plans for my holidays already but haven't start revising for my upcoming mock exam -______-" I had breakfast @ Sumbangsih Mulia (too much detail) at Beribee (: The place is great and the food is good. Yum yumm (:

On the 17th of this month was my anniversary with Jeff. 13 months and still going strong <3<3<3.

Seriously, I miss having dinner with all of my family. Bukannya apa, it's just that ever since my two brothers are grown up then they always have other plans with friends apa. Then they seldom eat dinner with my parents, my lil brother and I )': It's sad because last 3 or 4 years, it was different. Everyone was at home. When it's time for dinner then everyone was present. After dinner then all of us will head on to my parents room for desserts and watching TV. But now ... everything changes.

I guess I have to live with it. I mean, as time passes by, people grow up. I can't always expect my brothers to be always at home because they need to live up to their social needs (': Also, if I got to their age then I might do the same. But I'll always be my parents' baby girl (': It's funny, the world is going so fast. With a blink of an eye, people changed due to their surroundings. We can't stop it, because as we go along human with continue to evolve, yes? (: OMG! What the hell am I saying?! -____-" All of a sudden jua I get so serious ani? hahahahah :D

Anyway, I'm going to go online now. Jeff suruh online. Heeeee~ Miss Jeff a lot :D and and sayang him berabis <3<3<3

I love you Jeff... mwaa

2009-07-13T19:57:00.003+08:00

And my life continues ...

I don't know what am I feeling now. And even don't have an answer as to why am I like this. Things have changed ... unexpectedly. Still I was ignored. I'm in tears now. I close my eyes and let my memory swung by me. Why aku nda kana bagitau apa2 lately ani? Why? Oh yes ... I know. Because aku lame, yes? Because aku nda cool, yes? Because I don't socialize well, yes? Our conevrsations always didn't last long. I tried to be friends with you. But HELL! You treat me like apa? SHIT!

And yeah ... promise that nothing will change between us? HELL NO! Liar! Faker! Those are just words but you never mean it! (': I looked up to you as someone which I can rely on. Meaning that I can keep my secrets safe with you. But did I get that trust from you? Nahhh! (: I prayed for your success, but you didn't know that, yes? Because you're too damn selfish :D Yeah, you do apologized but did you really mean it? Really really mean it? My guessing is NO (:

It's not that I'm hating you or giving people a bad impression of you or taking a grudge (revenge) towards you. Shit~ I won't do that laaa. I might be stupid and sanang kau perbodohkan tapi aku masih berhati perut, berfikiran and masih ada otak yg kena anugerahkan dari Allah S.W.T. I thought that when you're gone from my sight then the pain is gone too but damn, it didn't (': How lucky of me~ I know this is dugaan from Allah ... and yes I need to bersabar (':

I know if kamu nda cakap sama aku then nda semestinya kamu nda ingaukan aku ... but ntah. I feel so damn heart broken. Dulu, I have someone to talk to. But ntah. That someone turn against me jua (': Because ntah. Aku nda cool kali. Aku ani boring kali. Aku ani nada sense of humour kali. Bullshit! Then that someone turn against me and went on to your direction jua! Shit!

Mentang2 you're so smart. Mentang2 you like can get whatever you want. Doesn't mean that you have to ditch me! and I thought I changed (': But no. You're the one. Sometimes I always wonder. Why do I give a damn about you when you don't even care about me? Is it because I didn't know you earlier? If that's the case then why now I'm seeing you close with someone that you didn't know earlier juaaa? Haha. Ah awuuu, now I know. Pasal durang pandai! Pasal durang siuk! Pasal durang cool! Pasal durang sanang dbawa gossiping! Right?

How I wish I can just vanish. Just like that. If kau kan ingau pasal aku kah or nda kah then atu mana saja tah kau (: Mana jua kau ingau tu if aku ada apa2. Pasal kau ada kawan2 cool mu atu. If aku mati pun nada jua kau kan tau tu (Jeff, I know you don't like me saying this but this is just a confession. I'll cerita with you after you're boxing training~~~ I love you) Bhapa jua kau kan tau pasal aku kan? Buang masa mu saja tu. Lagi baik kau ingau kan bestfriends mu yg pandai and cool atu, right? Pasal you say lah yg they were there in your bad times. Haha. Kau bagitau durang saja. Aku mana kau baritau. Then sudah atu you said that you just wanna keep those yg ada masa kau bnar2 memerlukan someone. Hell! Kau langsung nada bagitau. Shit!

Iatah kawan tu?! Aku tau for you it was not easy to handle that situation. But come on. You think I don't care about you? You think that I don't wanna be there for you? You think that I don't wanna make you feel better? So now, you like declare that those who were with you that time are your FRIENDS. Ntah eh, sasak ku sudah kan kau ani. But biar tia. Ani my dugaan dari Allah. Setiap apa yg berlaku mesti ada hikmahnya. Aku sayang kau. I really do. Terima kasih for everthing. You take care. It's okay if you don't need me at times. I understand, cause I know who am I to you (': Selamat malam. Belum ku tidur. Kan makan ku ni. Haha :D Bah bye ...

I love you Jeff... mwaa

This is my confession...

2009-07-07T18:48:00.002+08:00

This is my story...

I don't know what's wrong with me. I have always been the nobody. I have always been the uncool one. I have always been humiliated and was turn againts. I stumbled and fall in front of you but you didn't care. My feelings was always ignored by you. I still wonder how I survive being around you before. I nearly lose control of myself . I was going insane because you. I was torn by your actions. But you obviously didn't realize that.

There's one memory which keeps playing inside my head. The time when you humiliated me and said bad stuffs about me behind my back. I couldn't believed that you were againts me. Sadly, you let others to participate you in the event to humiliate me. I helped you with all my effort and ability that was gifted by Allah to me. But still, you're actions broke my heart. One day, I tried to seek help from a woman, who was and have always been with me. I thought that with her help and advice then you will change. But you didn't. I have always feel happy around you because I feel that I am accepted and not a social reject.

I was sad and upset because I laughed with you. I cried with you but why are you doing this to me? Those scars won't heal easily. I cried but all you can said that my action is childish. I am disappointed because I looked up to you. You were such an amazing gift for me that was send by Allah. I thanked you Allah. This life of mine is one scary thrill ride with loops and loops all the way. You will never understand my situation because you're not in my shoes! (':

I also then became more upset when I asked you to why you are like this to me and was replied by you saying that I wasn't there when you needed someone. How can I understand your condition and situation that time when all you can every say is that "it's nothing. I'm okay"? Am I unrealiable to you? Am I too thick to understand you? Am I'm too busy and couldn't spare some time for you? (': and I thought you were someone what I pictured you to be. I understand that we cannot please everyone, but maybe the problem is me... Am I too picky? Am I that stupid? Am I that unfun? (': I cannot blame you for everything because maybe this comes from me as well. Please, don't get offended (:

When I went away from your sight I thought that my nightmare ended. Truely I was wrong. I then meet another you. What a small world. It's like your twin! But needs an attitute ajustments (': That another you is so like you! How I wish both of you will meet one day and see for yourself how your real attitutes are! (': You think that you are so all that? You think that you're the centre of attention? ohh my~ that is so you (': Now, I don't give a damn about you. Meaning that I don't care what you do to me now. Hurt me as much as you want. Someday you'll see what it's like to be in my shoes just for once.

People get tired of doing something. So I hope you'll get tired of giving people a bad impression about me (: You know that you're not perfect and nobody is except Allah. All I do now is pray for your success. This is not an ironic situation. I don't want and don't like to take revenge. Because if I do then this mayhem would not stop, yes? (: All I pray to Allah is for you to have the best things in life and may Allah will make all your dreams and wishes come true. You take care. I'm sorry, this is not to hurt you.

This is just my confession. This is truely from the bottom of my heart. Only me myself and I knows who is the "you" that I am referring to. No hard feelings, yes? (:

I love you Jeff... mwaa

2009-07-03T22:01:00.005+08:00

Hey there readers (: Well firstly, I don't know what to update on my life now. Tee-hee (: Nowadays, people are talking about the death of MJ. It's so sad that he died so sudden )': I heard from the news today that in his wasiat, he wants to be buried secara org islam (': You go MJ!!! Also, the Influenza H1N1 is spread so fast! It's so scary because a 12 year old girl passed away due to that disease )': I got nothing to do now actually. I'm kinda bored because Jeff's at the hospital with his parents. Jeff's sick )': I pray to Allah so that it's just a minor and ordinary fever *amin* I'm so scared when Jeff told me that he was sick and he can't stop sneezing all the time )': Get well soon sayang. Baby will always pray for your health.

Oh I just remembered, I got sakai using PICASA 3 and PHOTOSCAPE for the last 2 days. Hahaha (: It's so fun to edit the pictures~~ So I wanna post some of the pictures which I edited. It's kinda an ordinary one actually~ heeee. But hey, at least I try (: haha. The one week extension of the h0liday almost comes to and end ... but wait ... there are more rumors saying that the MOE will extend the holidays for another I WEEK! ughhh -_-" It's fun to have a rest from school but I mean come on ... we are behind schedule. I'm not saying this like I'm so rajin to go to school but sudah tah cuti then nda kana suruh do social activities. Pfffttt -_-" Seriously, my otak buntu sudah. Cam I forget what was the last topic at school apa. Astaghfirallah! Mudahan jua ani ani nda pelupa bnar )':

I just checked my hp. Jeff belum ada msg ahhh! Membari ingau ati ehh )': I'm so scared if he fell sick apa. Because kesian wa if ia sakit. Ia nda brapa ada mood. But pasal rasa sayangnya to me, he still wanna go online bth2 with me (': he still wanna layan me (': he still wanna make me smile and laugh even in his worst health condition. I love you Jeff <3>

Seriously, I miss coming to school. I miss my time when I was in school. Especially masa dalam class psychology! I feel great whenever dalam that class. Maybe pasal ada Hazwan, ifah, najj, and Zahid atu (: haha. It's fun wa when in that class. I mean, kami klu kan jawap, we like malu2. We go like "eh kau lah jawap" then sudah org lain jawap our answer and happen to be right then we go "nah kan! Iatah kamu tu nah. Nda mau bunyi2" hahahah (: I miss every of my class and my tutors are superb (: What a minute! I just remembered, I haven't finish up the borang yg kena bagi oleh Sir Azhar. Borang pasal apakah tu I forgot. Later lah I go isi. Hahaha (: Bah okayy, atu saja my cerita. Byebye readers ^^.

I love you Jeff... mwaa

2009-06-17T16:53:00.008+08:00

Hello reader! I'm very very very happy today because today is my anniversarry with my Jeff <3>Today kami setaun ... well duh ... since it's our ANNIVERSARRY <3 Aku sungguh gembiraaaa ((: He so manithhhh wa tadi. He bawakan saya ada 2 small cakes, on his right hand, was a choco fudge and on his lef hand was an italian tiramisu cake <3<3<3 Yummyyy~ I was so thrilled ((: seriously I was ... yg dbawah ani not all gambar2 kami. Ada lagi banyak *kirai kirai* hahaha ((: the bottom line is that aku happy pasal I spent a year sudah with the one who loves me for who I am (': and we're going to be inseparable and this relationship will go on even stronger (': I love you sayang. I really really do. Thanks for always being there for me. Thanks for being there where no one was. Thanks for giving me my connfidence level back. Thanks for all sayang. You've done so much sudah (':

Happy anniversarry to us sayang <3

I love you Jeff... mwaa

2009-06-12T15:15:00.004+08:00

Readers, I'm back (: It's been a while since I last updated my blog. Good news is that school holiday is coming (: Woo-hoo rules!! Anyway, tomorrow, I'll be coming to school for the cross country. I just run for fun~ and since muiz and qilah are running too, I might as well join them (: I'm kinda upset with myself because I didn't get to meet my SMALHB friends on Wednesday night and Thursday afternoon -__-" Seriously, I miss Saudah, Nabilah and Liyana a lot! Girls, if you get back home then we jalam2 uh (: I miss you guys a lot!!!! *hugs* I miss hearing Nabilah's laughter, I miss seeing Liyana around and I miss hanging out with Saudah (': I laughed during and tend to reminise *sorry if it's the wrong spelling* when Amal told me "buleh-buleh saja tu" It got me to remember my life when I was school at SUAMP (': Then Amal and I started to remember how we used to recite the doa before we start reciting the Al Quran and the song that we recorded with Ustaz Ibrahim. Those were the memories~

I miss deekay~ awwww~ Not it gets me to reminise when me, her and liyana used to buy nasi ayam, Deekay will get the tulang2 part, liyana would love the paha and I used to have the isi part (': awww~ then2 I also remembered how liyana used to just use hand when eating because she hates it when her spoon always patah! hahahaha. The 3 of us also use to imagine what life would be when we enter form 6. We were separated, she went to UK, Deekay @ MD but now move to PTEK and me, at PTEM. Even though were separated, our hearts remain to be together. The same goes to all the Abyadh-ians (: I wish one day we could always go out ramai2 like we use to. I miss every one of the Abyadh-ians. I don't care if I have to say "i miss you" to them everytime, because that's the way how I feel towards them. I miss them <3

I don't know what I'm gonna do during this holiday~ I should and need to spent more time with my Jeff <3<3<3

Oh2, I just remembered, I went out with Jeff on last saturday, 6th June (: We watched "Angels and Demons" the movie was great, for me (: I miss that moment, because most of the time I was in his arms (': I love you Jeff... That was a great night because we then dine in @ Ideal where he loves to eat (: When we got there, he was like "1 spaghetti, chicken cheezeball etc..." he was going to buy ice-creams and mcm2 lagi but then he control saja pasal we went out with abg boy (: hahah. Kesian him~ but I am happy because he was happy that night (: Love, next time we watched "Transformer 2" together uh <3<3<3

Well, I guess that seems to be the latest update of my life (: I'll update more if I do have something to say about.. haha :D

I love you Jeff... mwaa

2009-05-12T21:02:00.004+08:00

Will update my blog as soon as I finish with my AS exams. Wish me luck people. To those whose birthday I didn't greet, you have my deepest apology... I've been busy lately... I hope you'll understand. Take care peeps... Bye (=

I love you Jeff... mwaa

MP's day out! Well, most of us xp

2009-04-12T15:53:00.007+08:00

MPs, all smiles. This was taken on 10th April 09 when we're @ the Empire with the KEMUDA Institute. It was a fun day since it's very rare for us MPs to hang out with one another~ We kicked start the day by taking a group photo with the students of KEMUDA Institute~ Then we learn on how a projector works. It was very facinating to see behind the scenes on how to operate a projector (= We then ended the day with watching a movie, together with the students od KEMUDA. We watched The Fast and Furious 4.. The movie was just so AWESOME!!! =D Here are the pictures taken on that day (=

I love you.. mwaa

Updateeee x))

2009-04-12T13:35:00.006+08:00

Yeah I know. It's been so a while since I last updated my blog. It's not dying nor it's on hiatus actually. But sooner or later it'll be on hiatus since it's like a month to go till my AS June exams =S Anyway, these are the pictures for this month. Firstly it's on my cousin's weeding day. Nikah uh.. Not bersanding.. heheh ^_^ The pelamin is sooo lawa~~ It looks like a clam shell, isn't it? (= Hehehe.. The pictures below are her hantarans from the hubby. Yg for the hubby nda sampat ku gambar.. hahaha.. sowieeee xp

I love you.. mwaa

Happy 18th birthday to me (^^.)

2009-03-28T01:03:00.005+08:00

to me...

I love you.. mwaa

ghaaah xp

2009-03-26T18:58:00.005+08:00

2 days to go till my 18th birthday~ I'm excited.. ghee x)) Hope that all of my invited friends could come.. I'm watching American Idol now. Hee x)) I'm not sure what I want for my birthday. I couldn't stop hating this "ghost" jerk whose been disturbing my mom since I don't know when. Long story short.. I over heard my mom's conversation between her and her sister or friend. I wasn't sure because I was at a distant from her. I know that it's so wrong to buzz in people's conversation.. but this is my mom. I thought she was talking about her younger sister. Because her younger sister have the same problem whereby she was disturb by an unknown freak whose been miscalling her for the past few months. But I was sure that my mom had the same problem. Ya Allah, please let that lunatic to go away from my mom's my aunt's life. I mean, come on man, both of these girls are married, have kids and are having an amazing life. FUCK OFF FOOL! PACK YOU THINGS AND GET A LIFE!! STOP DISTURBING OTHER PEOPLE'S LIFE!!! I haven't ask my mom on anything about that lately because if so I do ask, then she'll definitely be mad at me.. DEFINITELY. ghaaahhh xp Not much to say now. Well, goodbye.

I love you.. mwaa

haloo x))

2009-03-24T12:15:00.007+08:00

Gosh! It's been a while since I last blogged.. Ghee x)) Sorry for that. I have a lot to wite about but then I'm just too lazy.. huhu.. To kiki, ada tu me buat yg you tagged atu babe uh.. hehe ^_^ Thanks for tagging me btw x)) About Meragang?? We moved there on March 15th. The school is okay. Very beautiful structure.. in and out!! aha xD But then problem is that then tables in the cafeteria are small x((. Ohh2.. talking about cafeteria, I just remembered one hilarious incident.

It starts like this, the girls' table.. *meja durang ifah*, actually ada two tables.. But then suddenly on the 2nd day when we arrived @ the cafeteria, one of our tables were not there.. Gone lah tuu meaning nya.. ghaah x(( Rupa2nya kana ambil leh the chinese students.. Sorry uh.. aku bukan racist. But then cam membari marah jua tu.. durang yg ambil the girls' table.. like.. WTH! Then2, ifah and yg lain *I forgot yg lain* decided to take back the table.

Then when ifah and friends walked towards the table to get it back, then they decided to put all the stuffs on the table to the chairs. Little do they know that one of the chinese guy when back to get his stuffs.. ghee x)) Then ifah and all were like bejalan balik towards out direction and ketawa2.. cam cali jua tu.. durang serious sudah tu kan mengambil balik then bebalik tia cina nya.. wahahaha.... I'm not insulting or apa uh.. aku just kan becerita so no offence x))

So yeah.. Now as you can see, is the holidays. I'm not that thrill about it. I don't know why. Hey2, 4 more days till my 18th bday baby.. wahahaha *excited much* I'm planning to invite my SDR's close friends to have a BBQ night @ my house. Hopes that everything goes well x)) *amin* Btw, speaking about party, that reminds me on something happended on our last day @ school *the closing of 1st term*. That time, during lunch break, most of the tables were filled with food and drinks.

Then ada this one table the people there over reacted. I'm sorry if ada org2 nya baca this blog. Most of them behaved okay but then sampai colouring the bday girl's face with cupcakes? Hello?? Over reacted much.. Why is that? Attention seeker? Or following the westerners?? Like WTH man.. Nda jua payah kan over. Other tables cam nda jua payah cematu.. other students that were celebrating their bday didn't acted like that.. Cam when durang put the cupcakes arah muka2 durang then cam.. ntah eh.. membazir rezki tu namanya.. hahaha..

Enough about that.. Malas ku kan ingau jua.. klu kana baju ku that time then mengamuk bnar ku tu.. ghee x)) During this holiday I didn't do much fun. I have 2 extra classes which is over pasal tadi last.. hehe.. then tomorrow tuition physics.. huhu.. So much things to do x(( Anyway, my current health condition is still not that good. My fever and cough tends to become worst.. huhu.. ntah eh.. pandai ia baik sendiri.. ghaahhh xD Atu saja for now lah.. I wanna go and post the tagged thing that kiki gave me (^^.)

I love you.. mwaa

3 weeks...

2009-03-07T20:48:00.005+08:00

In exactly 3 weeks I'm turning 18 (: *Yeay* But then I keep asking myself.. why am I not as excited as before? Before this I was just so enthusiastic of turning 18. But something felt wrong... what is it? Honestly, don't ask me... I'm still searching for it (: I'm not healthy lately. I have very dry lips and then some portion starts to peel off.. and yeah~ It hurts :S I just can't understand that lately my life's a bit chaotic. I tried to sleep early and yet, it does not solves the problem.. *sigh* I tried to relax.. but how??? People, do help me... Not much left to say.

I love you.. mwaa

Orientation :D

2009-03-03T17:37:00.005+08:00

Orientation was fun!!! Well for us, the seniors basically... the juniors was like... duhhhh -____-" durang cam nda iski and nda enthusiastic.. I'm not saying all but then some of my friends (seniors) cakap it was boring well, i felt that too. I still remember when we were juniors last year. The seniors was so energetic and in the end, we were too.. I miss that time, seriously I do (: Ani tadi uhh.. the juniors cam.. when hasnah said "ok, sing along.. " then the juniors were "hmm.. uhh...." ntah ee.. But then cam kami plang yg iski ani wa.. cam kami tah plang yg orientation ani. We understand that you guys might not feel alright pasal everyone, well most of them, are new to you. But then that's the point of orientation. We help you all to break the ice between one another and between you and us (seniors). But then maybe they are just too shy *cough* Overall. I'm not upset today because all of my fellow MPs and PRS made it a success.. *high five*

I love you.. mwaa

2009-03-02T22:26:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to beloved sis afifah (:
May you'll be successful in life and sadang2 tah kan meliat DVD sal org jepun sama korea yg handsome.. ghee x) Jokes peeps. Miss you a lot. Mwaaa~

Tired x(

2009-02-27T13:51:00.002+08:00

Ghaa.. lately, my blog's kinda dying -_-" Today, my maid went back to philippines because her mom's sick. Pity her. But then the good news is that she'll be back... but then... on march... end of march -_-" It's like a month I have to do all the chores x( But then, it's okay. I won't want my mom to do all the work. Pity her x)

Tomorrow I'm going to Duan's house *insyallah* It's going to be fun because all of our closest friends are coming. Yeah!! SDR baby.. haha x) Oh2.. I just remembered.. tomorrow is my gorgeous bunchu's bday.. hahaha.. kambang tia nehh klu she read this xp So far I'm kinda busy every since my maid went home, we're moving to Meragang, then I have tuitions and extra classes.. it's like.. OMG!! But then it's okayy~~

Later I wanna go out but then nda tau kan kemana.. wahahahah xD Go to gaydunk? Neeehh~~ Qluv? Dunnoe eh... Yayasan?? Yeah riighhhhtt~~ hahahaha... I'm bored ee.. bah2 later I update again.. ghee x) Love you.. mwaaa~

Update x)

2009-02-23T23:12:00.005+08:00

Sorry because I haven't update it for quite a while there. I've been busy as you can see on what happened on my previous post (: But it's okay. I'm okay. I'm strong (: I'll get through this. Yes Deekay, I'll sedekahkan my grandpa Yassin and Fathihah (': Anyway, before I forget, Happy 25th Independence Day to all Bruneians. May Allah will prosper our life with happiness, success and never to forget to always thank the Al mighty (Allah) for anything even the smallest thing. We must learn to appreacte things. ghee x)

Tommorow is going to be a busy day for me, as on the afternoon (after class) I'm going to help my fellow MPs and PRS to help move the lab equipments and library books to Meragang. My assessment results didn't went well, but then my friends support me and convienced me that I can do better. Thanks friends. Mwaa. Thanks to kiki because she helped too (: What more do post?? Hmm... Oh I almost forgot!! Today is Duan's 18th brithday (: Happy birthday uan.. ahakz :D Yesterday was my parents' 24th anniversary (': I love you mom and dad *hugs*

Oh, I just noticed that I haven't post pictures for quite a while there. I haven't got any new ones.. ghee x) If so then I'll post it up (: okay. Beddy time. Take care readers. Love you.

Update (:

2009-02-17T23:56:00.010+08:00

I've been busy for the past few days. My grandfather passed away, Al-fathihah. The one that I have always mention to my friends yg before sakit d KB. He passed away on Sunday 3:45 a.m. The sad thing is that, that night before he passed away, I went there to visit him and had a few laughs with him and my grandmother. It never occurred to me that it was the last time for me to have fun with him. When my mom woke me up to tell me about that news.. I just froze. My tears were frozen. I couldn't cry. It just struck through me. The night before he passed away, I was there with my family then came along my Tua's daughter, sis amy. Oh gosh! It just happened so fast. My friends gave me support. I need not to cry because according to our religious, it's not good for us to cry about the dead as it will only bring suffering to their souls. Maybe I should cut the whole thing short. Not wanting to go so much detail about that (:

Better go to sleep now. It's late. Gheee :D Night2 people (:
Love you all. Mwaaa
Btw, I miss kiki much much )':

Not much (:

2009-02-12T18:53:00.007+08:00

Nama ku Afiqah Azimah Binti Julkepli (: pakannn~~ Aku bth dah nda update blog ku.. hmm~ pasal apa baik uh?? Ah2 baru ku ingat.. Aku addicted arah PET SOCIETY wahahahaha :D Si hamis punya pasal.. Astee.. tadi lagi.. aku lupa yg aku ada meeting adventure club.. hahaha.. then nasib jua raihanna ada bagi tau *suwi raihan xp* hahahahaha. update? Pasal apa? Awuu.. tadi masa PS si khai sakit parut.. then ia malas kan ke jamban pasal ia takut org cakap jamban berbau lapas ia ke jamban atuu *paham2 saja lah ia kan bhapa* wahahaha. The si memet damam *hugs xp* Aku org baik wah met xp... hahahaha

Tadi aku baru tau.. latest gossip dari c boy.. pasal si atuuu *kirai2* hahahaha.. aku notice plang about ceritanya atu but then sekali aku dangar dari him then like WTH!!! Bnar rupanya.. wahahahaha. Ntah ee.. cana kan buleh semua itu terjadi xp Then on saturday ada meeting from 2:10 till 4:45 like OMG!!! Bth wa tuu.. But then klu nda dtg then consider kana kick out from MP x( Baik dtg wahai MP ku sebelum kamu d datangi.. pakannnn *lame* Tadi aku chat sama deekay. I MISS YOU deekay. I miss every one of my abyadhians.. yg dorang yg d UK atu apa lagii... tahap maksima wa aku merindui durang.. YANA, SAUDAH & NABILAH... i miss you all much much...

Yeayyy!!! Aku berjaya mengupdate blog ku walaupun it cam lame brabis *sigh* nda apa lah.. janji ber update.. hahahaha.. kepada kawan2 ku yg masih or akan menghadapi exam or test then good luck :D Mana saja tah ia.. test/exam lesen krita pun the good luck. Ghee :D Kepada yg mengenali diri aku ini.. then KAMU SENTIASA D HATI KU.. pakannn... *lame* -____-"

2009-02-10T15:02:00.003+08:00

Tagged by the darling vivi (:

1. Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her.

She's cute (:

She loves herself (:

She's miss independent (:

She's a happy-go-lucky girl *yes?* (:

She's been doing well without a man lately (:

She's my gossip girl *right babe?* (:

She goes to SMSO *senior* (:

She's into pink *guessing* (:

She's a good friend (:

She's an MPP (:

2. The person who get tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself.

♡The name's Afiqah Azimah Binti Julkepli *Thanks to parents for the lovely name*♡

♡Born on March the 28th 1991♡

♡Candy lover♡

♡Chocoholic much ♡

♡Enthusiastic in many terms *smile*♡

♡Loves the color pink♡

♡Butterflies? *wide smile*♡

♡Spoiled? *sometimes*♡

♡Family and cousins are my priority (Y)♡

♡Have the SDR's *best friends for life*♡

♡Devoted to Jeff *hugs*♡

3. You need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

Aimi

Najj

Ifah

Yas

Qimmy

Tins

Waie

Duan

Hazwan

Aziz

birthday (:

2009-02-06T12:53:00.004+08:00

Happy 20th birthday pipin (=

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2009-02-06T11:33:00.001+08:00

Thanks for the teddy pipin (:

Really love it ^_^

Birthday (:

2009-02-05T17:34:00.002+08:00

Happy 11th birthday to beloved nephew Hanisah Aqilah (:

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Tagged (:

2009-02-04T16:30:00.005+08:00

Awarded by Dbah-snow PTEB-ian.

♥ Copy badge di atas untuk di lekatkan ke blog anda.

♥ Ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda.

Adibah Hassan, she's in the same tutor group with me. B and A 1 (:

♥ Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum

memilih penerima seterus nya (anda ditag)

1. I'm a girls whose into pink stuffs *obviously*

2. I love to shop *drools*

3. I can be spoiled sometimes because I'm the only daughter *thumbs up*

4. A chocoholic *yummy*

5. Loves butterflies *smile*

6. An open-minded person *smiles more widely*

7. Quiet and shy... NOT! *evil laugh*

8. Hates backstabbers and liars *give that bad boy look :p*

9. Likes to take vain pictures of myself *stares at the camera*

10. Lovable? depends, mostly it's a yes *pouts*

♥ Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan nyatakan nama

mereka di blog anda:

Qimmy.

Matul.

phat.

Najj.

Aimi.

Ifah.

Waie.

Kiki.

Jim.

Jeff (:

Birthday (:

2009-01-30T13:15:00.006+08:00

Birthday bash at Swensens (:

Nope, this is not the bday person :p hahahaha. This is my niece Habriyah and my cousin abg Khairul (:

The bday cake *yummy*

The birthday girl *hasya* is the one in the red jacket (: In pink is jidah, black T-shirt is Basyirah and wearing tudong is Aqilah (:

Cute post (:

Khalish *middle* is also celebrating his 16th bday. It was a surprise for him actually because the mommy mau sambut sekali gus saja.. His turning 16 on 2nd Feb btw (: Happy advance birthday dear. Left is Iffat and right is me (:

This was the time when the kids played musical chair...

Last round......... the winner was Basyirah (: *applause*

This was a game played by the 'adults' hahaha. I was at the back.. lol :D That's abg Khairol, yg pakai cap and yg far right is abg mirul and yg tangah2 dua org atu are khalish and iffat.. Blow!!!! :p

This was khalish's piece of cake (: Nicely cut :p

Results are out!!!

2009-01-30T13:01:00.002+08:00

O's, A's and AS's results.. Congrats to those who got through it.. For those who doesn't, please have faith.. Keep on trying. I know maybe it's hard for you but you all must NEVER GIVE UP!!! Okay, enough of that... My AS results didn't turn so well for me. I got a C for psychology and a D for EAS. It's okay. I'll keep on trying hard for this june. I'll pay more attention on tutors, works and less on activities and this online thing (:

Congrats to my "siblings" Aqilah and Syikin for getting 8 O's. I'm so so proud of you both. *Hugs* I so can't wait for the juniors to come.. When uh? err I don't know eh :p

Friends.

2009-01-28T18:53:00.004+08:00

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ABYADHIANS, YOU'RE MY EVERTHING ('=

hee ('=

2009-01-27T22:32:00.005+08:00

aww.. *watched them*

They grew up ('=

Did they ignored me?

Or I paid less attention to them?

I asked on how were they doing..

they didn't answer...

they don't click me on MSN...

only tagged me to tell me something...

and not asking on how I was doing...

Gosh~ Life's fast.

Maybe if I die they won't even notice it..

*thinking*

I miss them.. but did they miss me?

I don't know. But I do hope that they do ('=

I don't mind...

Maybe they care me less...

I'm not outstanding (=

They are better off without me I guess?

I don't know...

If so, then )'= But I hope so that they want me (=

Did they care when I was sick?

Neehh~

I tried my best to keep track with them...

but still...

I was ignored ('=

Are they busy?

I guess so...

Too busy for a friend?

I don't know...

I don't like to judge people, I guess ('=

Thanks for being good friends..

P/s: Not to DR family (=

Kiki loves (:

2009-01-27T22:20:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to Kiki loves (:

Maybe you be blessed with prosperity, joyful, happiness and success in your life, now and forever *majal ucapan for gong xi fa chai sajaa* :p

Love you babe. Take care. *hugs

mwaaaaaaaaa

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Happy Chinese New Year (:

2009-01-26T22:08:00.006+08:00

GONG XI FA CHAI,

to all my family and friends who are celebrating it (:

Have a prosperous, happy and joyful life for this and years to come.

Songs x)

2009-01-26T04:18:00.009+08:00

The latest songs that I downloaded for my iPod (:

Kanye West HEARTLESS NEW Music Video - OFFICIAL

Rihanna - Rehab - New Music - More Music Videos

Hmmph.

2009-01-24T14:32:00.002+08:00

Must I suffer so much now?

Is this my faith?

When will this heart rest?

Birthdays (:

2009-01-22T17:55:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to Fauzi.

Happy belated birthday to Helmi.. Si pau :p heheh x)

Tired -_-"

2009-01-20T18:23:00.002+08:00

God! I am so so tired today -_-"

I arrived home about 4:30 after having a meeting with adventure club.

Not much to say actually, just tired because busy busy busy :)

Today, I bought something from the new canteen. I love the laksa much much.. Ntah uh.. Laksa kah jua tu.. Heheh x) The gravy is so delicious *for me laa* Then2 tadi masa I was at the new canteen with Raihan, something funny happened. The story goes like this...

Raihan ani kan bali buns.. then the buns were 80 cents but turns to $1 if you add milo or sarsi.. so raihan was like saying 'bah'... then silence jap then laila cakap 'apa yg bah2 ani?'. Rupanya raihan cam blur tadi atu.. wawawaw.. Kesian ee.. Lapar bnar sampai blurr... Then whenever the canteen owner ask what does raihan wants then raihan kept on saying BAH but with no reason and was kinda blank and blur.. Atu ya~ Bnar2 wa lela sama abhar ketawa.. aku apa tah lagi.. HAHAH.. Suwi rai.. KS you (: Heheh x)

2009-01-16T19:03:00.003+08:00

Tagged by anneMICKEY :D

Do you think you're hot?

Neeh. Not even close x)

Upload your favorite picture(s).

Why do you like that picture(s)?
- Even though Hazwan was not in the picture but then I love it because these are my SDR family. <3

The last song you listened to?
-I'm done by Pussycat Dolls. <3>Which name do you prefer beside yours?
- zeelala.

Tag 5 people:
I - Aimi

II - Najj

III - Ifah

IV - Yas

V - Waie

Who is number 1?
- She's a good friend of mine <3>Number 2 is having a relationship with who?
- Cintanya *kirai2* <3

Say something about number 5
- Cool (Y)

How about number 4?
- She's also a good friend and really lawa x) <3>

Who is number 3?
- She's also also a good friend of mine. Caring one ^_^ <3

WTF!!

2009-01-07T20:48:00.003+08:00

Grrrr! Ngoks bnar ee.. Sejak bila tah durang lepak dsana atu? Huhu.. We were there first then nda paidah2 kana serang our spot.. bummer *sigh* -_-" No worries tu ee.. Nda lagi bth kan ke Meragang jua.. I can't wait ee.. Cali tadi at school masa lunch, pocket sluar c duan tersangkut arah handle door arah jamban laki2 yg dapan bilik2 the makciks... hehehe :D Mcm, panjang bnar jua sudah kaki si duan tu sampai mampu tersangkut.. ghahahah.. Suwii wan.. KS you.. ghee X) Raihan kata, ia jadi good boy time PS pasal spot kami kana invade sudah.. HAHAHAHA. Klu kan tau who are 'them' then tanya2 saja kami.. kekekeke =p

Skulah :D

2009-01-05T15:34:00.002+08:00

Hello readers.

Today was the first day of me being a senior at PTEB. We had an assembly at the assembly point. All of the student. The principle and deputies told us about our canteen in run by some new company, we need to work extra hard this year and maybe we move to Meragang if possible before February. ghee :D I was excited to see all of my friends especially my 9 circle of best friends. HEHEHE.

Sadly my PS block was change to block 1.. ='/ I don't wanna change because I gonna miss my block 3 PS people so badly... boo-hoo ='/ My bio class was mixed up with other classes. There are 19 students if I'm not mistaken... In my class that is. I sat next to Aimi (^^.) She's one of my 9 circle of best friends.. ghee :D

During psychology class, Ms Aziyah made a new arrangement of sittings. The boys on her right and the girl's on the other side. She made this because her friend told her that after doing so, the students tend to have a good results. Hope that it works on us. Sadly, hazwan has to go on the right side of the room ='/ but then his seat was taken by ifah. They both are in my 9 circle of best friends... ghee :D While Zed sat next to Hazwan on the front row... Zahid's also one of my 9 circle of best friends...

Hmmph~ Seriously, I found that to be annoying.. I mean the fact that I kept on mentioning '9 circle of best friends' over and over again. I'm not good at making sentence, so yeah... Sorry about that people... -_____-

That's all for today. Bye (^^.)

Otw kan skulah (:

2009-01-03T10:23:00.002+08:00

This monday students will start to go back to school. Same goes to me. I'll be continuing my studies but then as a SENIOR baby! ghee :D I can't wait to go to school. To see my 9 circle of best friends. HEHEHE. I so so can't wait. My lil sister turn 17 on the 31st. Si najj waaa :D Ehee.. A levels here I come. HAHAHA. Semangat! Langsung I didn't read anything while the holidays. gagagaga. My relationship now.... ntah.. Ups and downs.. Kan cerita arah friends takut krng aku yg menangis sidak2.. ='/ Dunnoe lah. But then they deserve to know because they are my closest friends. My besties. Now I'm online-ing. Bored. Later on at 11 AM I'll go offline because I need to wrap my lil brother's books before school starts. *annoyed* ghee :D That's all for now.

bye....

Brg2 yg ku bali... gagagaga.

2009-01-01T16:44:00.001+08:00

Things I bought from KK

A white channel wallet.

A LIVERPOOL bag for me to bring my sports things.

A pink shoe *Saja2 bali* lol :D

A blue-ish green colored *I guess* dress.

Black and white Lulu Bell's bag. *For school* lol :D

pictures in KK

2009-01-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

Some pics @ KK ^_^

At this time, me and my lil brother was just playing around in one of the shops in 1 Borneo. The kain here are so so lawa... Glamorous lagi.. Ahakz :D

Basar wa the christmas tree and it caught my attention *well, who doesn't with that size* Toinks =P

I adore this baju much much~ Lawa the color.

Here we are again. Playing with the reflection and camera.. lol :D Now we're @ a glasses shop because my parents wants to buy one and they did.

While my parents were mengusai their degree, my lil brother were trying on this glasses and said that he like it. Err.. No comment =P

We were at The Chicken Rice Shop in 1 Borneo (: I just noticed that my lil brother's eyes are close.. lol :D

The model of 1 Borneo.

Front desk after the main entrance at 1 Borneo (:

Back from KK

2009-01-01T14:36:00.003+08:00

Hey people, back from KK. I arrive around 6:40 PM. Went out with cousin to celebrate the new year with my tiring face and fragile frame.. HAHA :D KK was great. The shopping part that is.

It was funny and yet tiring. I had so much fun with my family. Our apartment was.. err... no comment. The room was okay but the way to it was... yeah.. No need to explain. I mean, the lift was kinda slow and had it's numbers all gone. The door was close in seconds. The path way was so smelly.. ugh... but the room was okay. Except for the fact that we have to lift the pump up manually, I mean the toilet pump.

Shopping there was so so great. It was sale time so yeah~ It was great. I bought, one school bag, one sport bag, a dress, a wallet, a handbag and shoes. My lil brother bought a SODA jacket, my dad bought shoes and stocking *giggles* and mom got herself a pair of shoes, wallet, handbag and clothes. Shopping @ 1 Borneo was the best. It's better to shop there than in KL or Singapore. The mall was super huge. I got tired just finishing the ground floor.

The part where I hate the most is that when we were on our way to find food in the airport on the last day there, we tend to order a sandwich. Then on the menu board there was no description on what seemed to be the ingredients. When our sandwich was been served, my mom had an instinct about the sandwich so she stopped my little brother from eating it. My mom then called out one of the waitress to ask what was in the sandwich. The waitress then said with a smile 'oh, it's salad, cheese and HAM' then left. And yes HAM!! HAM for crying out loud!!

She saw us using TUDONG but didn't said a word that the foods was non-halal there! That was so rude and pissed my parents out. My dad ones to talk to the manager but then we were kinda late for our flight already. We then left without the food untouched for sure! HOW RUDE! They think that Muslims are easy to be fooled just like that? Well, they messed with the wrong people! God I hated that restaurant. We then went back to Brunei, arrived home, hit the showers and went out to eat. It was an unforgettable experience.

Ready to go (:

2008-12-29T08:25:00.000+08:00

My family and I will go to the airport on noon and will be send there with the help of our friendly neighbor next door. Now my parents is sending my brother's Ford ST to the agent. My lil brother and I are at home and checking on stuffs to bring..... NOT! We're kinda watching movie at the moment.

Anyway, it's time to go now. Parents have arrived and yeah...

Will update soon

Btw, it's the 29th today. Not 28th.

I don't know why my blog's date appearsto be a a day delayed.

Packing

2008-12-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

I'm currently packing after I had been busied by wrapping my little brother's books before school re-opens. I did a lot! And I'm so tired. My flight will be on the afternoon tomorrow. I don't know precisely on what time =/ Obviously I'll be replying my friendster comments as soon as I get back home. And also plurk. More than a 100 responds I assume

Anyway, for surely I'll update my blog soon with pictures of me there . Take care people.

I love you all.

Tq mommy.

2008-12-28T20:19:00.000+08:00

Thank you mommy for buying me this beautiful bracelet

It's the charm bracelet from Victoria's secret.

2008-12-27T11:02:00.000+08:00

Now I'm just listening to

The music from Muizzah's blog is just so soothing.

So I'm staying here, at her blog for a while.

Yeay!

2008-12-27T09:14:00.000+08:00

I'm happy today oh. Pasal my 2nd brother balik from camp. Yeay! He kan balikan me brg pasal his gaji baru keluar~ Sayang my abg. Shhhh~ Don't let him know that.. Hehe (: This monday I'll be leaving Brunei and heading to KK for 3 days 2 night holiday trip. I'll be back on the 31st around evening. Can't wait to go there. I wanna shop till drop at the 1 Borneo Hyper mall. *dance* Ahaks :D Will update more soon. ghee :D